CHAKACHAKACHUCHU

no.270

2008-01-22T17:36:00.001+08:00

BYEBYE Blogspot

no.269

2008-01-15T23:10:00.000+08:00

I'm working as a tutor now, not earning much, so do no ask me to give you a treat! because...I'm saving up for clothes. AND AND AND I have volunteered my free time in the morning to NUH!!! Hopefully they will get to me soon!!! I don't want to waste 3 hours of my mornings in front of the television watching repeats. I rather spend those 3 hours meaningfully.

JAE, DAE, JPSAE. I have been calling up schools and MOE to clarify my doubts. Miss blur-cock here thought a whole lot of bullshit worries and now.. she need not worry. I can actually apply under these three exercises. Everyday I think about the courses and the choices I make and then I worry. Now I'm trying to get all the records of community work etc that I have done. PJC better allow me... If not I stand at the losing end... Argh.

Yesterday, I had a very weird dream(all my dreams are weird even if I like it). It wasn't the same-ol-same-ol lead male. This was unexpected. Sim...was the lead male. There was my beloved Chan chan. I must be so worried about PJC not giving me a 'testimonial' thing(okay, I have not ask yet). I think I'll call up the office tomorrow or something and ask for Chan Chan or usha usha. It will save me a trip and getting rejected if they don't let me.

Good news. My room is finally cleared. No more creepy spiderwebs and spider. Man, I took like 5 mins to kill that stupid spider. It was hanging on its web during his last 30 secs. Stupid! Its neater, more walking space, lesser worksheets(from JC), lesser bags and clothes... That's why I'm earning money to buy clothes... That's why I'm clearing my cupboard for some space to put new clothes. Certain stuff are also back to where it should be... and well... nothing else..

Life sucks. Need diploma, need cert to make it out there. Life sucks, my mother is not giving me pocket money. Life sucks, so broke, misses school. Because when there's school, Cassandra gets some $$ and something to waste time on. Life sucks... it is only half way through January and kiasu Singaporeans are already que-ing up for BAK GWA. Life rocks, I still get concession rates while taking the public transport.

Bye. Switching to livejournal soon. So watch this space for the link =D

no.268

2008-01-13T21:09:00.000+08:00

Beady eyes, lips to die for, an arched back and a body that radiates warmth.

Every trip to the toys store leaves me disappointed. Its been a long time since I walk out with something that I really want. They have everything and any kind of toy someone wants. Somehow, it never stocks what I want and longed for. I either come out with a 'replica' or something similar or I just walk out with some accessories. This is something that I can't "seek ye first the kingdom of God and his righteousness. And all these things shall be given unto you..".

There is something to rejoice about!!! Finally one fruit of the spirit has grown and is receptive to the Lord!! Chyle Leng!!! YAYness!!! All the prayer walks, sharings and fun... He has answered our prayers and work through her!!! One new sister in christ =D

no.267

2008-01-12T01:02:00.000+08:00

6 years of friendship and still counting!

no.266

2008-01-08T23:14:00.000+08:00

I got into 08S01! HAHAHAHHAHA. Monday was a great day. Because I met up and hanged out with Liang Zheng and Rachel. and they HAD TO THROW MY SLIPPERS TO THE FIELD! hmpmh! But then again, when's the next time we get to do stuff like this together. I should not have withdraw so quickly. At least, I still can play... and not resort to reading books... or exercising... wait... I must exercise to keep in shape.

This morning was spent at Ngee Ann Poly. Early morning. I experienced taking the bus(without sleeping much, china looking boy beside me manz..) and well that's about it. Well.. I saw derek there!! and Sean from a far and sofia from the bus stop and obviously yu min and his few friends and the admin woman... Life is boring... I can't wait to apply for courses and stuff like that. I totally missed the chance to do so last year.

I was at the library trying to find the book "I kissed dating goodbye". Jurong library don't have ah! Like that, I have to borrow from joanne, that's if she still has.. I need to read the book. For personal reasons. At the rate I'm going, I'm never making it. and the year is just getting started... there are so many reasons why I should be looking forward to...

back to square one.

no.265

2008-01-04T22:48:00.000+08:00

shoot. i'm back to sqaure one.

no.264

2008-01-04T21:19:00.000+08:00

"For my first week in school was totally great..lalalalala"

And it ended on a high note as well =D

Forget all the hatred...remember the lovely memories(ahem ahem). and also, I'll remember rachel bitchie.I feel violated leh!

Well... It was not a wasted year after all! i can't give the habitual hello to yangyi, have disgusting talks with denise,get bullied by rachel...hang out with s04, talk with yin lin during training, get called a malay or banglah by trevor, hang out in the morning with volleyballers, see the ruggers train =X and be crazy. shit lah... I miss everybody already. oh! Look at jaguar's face... and And.. i had to put wah tuck's photo here lah. He made my first week uber fun and funky. Ivan and Jian Yun too =D Jian Yun, BFF!!

no.263

2008-01-02T23:01:00.000+08:00

Rachel bitchie... Don't miss me.

First day of school for me, was totally not fun. I wasn't with my class (yes, surprise surprise!) and they gave us some prep talk and you know what i'm JC 1 and a 1/2! I miss Mrs Chan.... oh crap... I'm really starting to miss S04(surprise surprise!) and rachel bullying me! hahahaha.

The decision has been made. I'm definitely not going to KL with the volleyballers (so you more or less know what's happening next). And, I'm praying hard that I get to do what I really enjoy doing.

The new stall in the canteen... the Sakae one... its a waste of money. Totally no value for money... But then... oh man.. now I miss rachel and her chin chow thing. And I miss crapping around with the church youth. I'm starting to feel nostalgia.

no.262

2007-12-29T23:31:00.000+08:00

Youth Camp Pictures. I had a great time there, learning new stuff, receiving advices and words of encouragement that I never asked for and of course, having a FABULOUS TIME! Yesterday was the 'unofficial lights out' night... I joined in for the 'complete the song book' groupie, so we sang for a few hours I suppose and we didn't finish the whole song book, except through Timo's way. And then we played some games(yes, once you hit 17, you're old and can't compare to the younger ones). I slept at 5 something in the morning, I couldn't take it. At least we all detoxified ourselves with Derek's drinking game. It was alcohol free.

Now, its back to school. the poly route maybe

no.261

2007-12-22T17:06:00.000+08:00

I'm back from Puchong!!! with no pictures now(except for some explicit ones!)

I've got so much to talk about the whole mission trip. It was definitely spiritually uplifting. I wished I could stay longer, I had too much fun doing HIS work!

Off to KL, again...! Then to youth camp! and then... some presentation thingy for the trip to the church. Hahahhahaha.

no.260

2007-12-14T00:49:00.000+08:00

Almost everything has been done before the trip =D Just a few candy canes and a overdued present to receive, hah, maybe two!

Hello Puchong =D and KL...

I'll rush back to Singapore on the 26 to maybe have lunch with you all girls. and if we don't have the bbq... aiyah, we can just have a mini post xmas celebration at my house on the 28th lah. So you girls keep 28th free. This is in red, so you all better read this and pass the msg among the six of us. This is a warning, I'm opening my house for you all. Some kind of warning...

Bye Bye.

P.S I want my cookies when i'm back denise!

no.259

2007-12-10T22:29:00.000+08:00

My legs are aching from all the walking today. And my heart is touched by the beautiful songs that I heard today. Went t-shirt hunting with Sim today. Hahh. I think I know him a lil' better than before... I hope that person will like the gift you getting her, even though its obvious where you got it from! Thank you for erm... trying on shirts... and hunting for shirt(s)... Thank You david choo for inviting me to the 'Razzle Dazzle' thingy. I so love the song that you compose!! I think its "All over again". I'm sure God is so proud of you and that you have made use of the talents that he has richly blessed you with to praise him!

I have bought my crumpler :))))) like finally..

The Puchong team sang for the chinese congregation yesterday. I suppose we did pretty well! I'm so eggcited for this saturday to come! One week away from the life but to spend one wonderful week with my church mates. I'm praying everything will go smoothly =D

=( My sprained ankle is swelling again. This time even bigger =( My "why me, why me lord" skit will be so-real again! okay...

Happy Holidays!!!

no.259

2007-12-04T01:57:00.000+08:00

Michael Seater is <3you sent an angel Lord,

to help knock some sense into me and,

to tell me my flaws.

thanks ah.

now i'm freaking out.

no.258

2007-12-02T19:49:00.000+08:00

Happy belated birdday to me. The main bulk of photos(with joanna) are still not being uploaded on her multiply thingy. It was also Ivan's birthday yesterday. I didn't get myself the a walk to remember dvd for my own birthday pressie but a nice wrapped up ankle from the hospital. Nice gift wrapper man...

Many thanks to sofia, ak, saman, cheryl, michelle and rachel. Cheryl I hope you had fun doing your metro cip thingy.
Many thanks to all you kiddos for winning fairfield.
Many thanks to ex-bfs for the birthday wishes.
Many thanks to amenda and how sun too.
Many thanks to Puchong team for the birthday song for ivan and I. And helping me to carry my stuff. And daniel for opening and closing the taxi door and always paying 60% of the cab fare.
Many thanks to the friendster wishes and facebook wishes and trendiki wishes and sms wishes.

Hah. I can now give a real act for the "Why me, Why me Lord!" skit in Puchong. The injured volleyballer~ OMG! I got a new saprano partner. No more cass the light bulb. He's Sammuel lah! and I have yet to memorise all the songs. But I think memorising the chinese songs first is better. tsk. The main bulk of the visitors are chinese speaking =( We most prolly have to sing our chinese songs to the chinese congregation this sunday to get a feel of singing in chinese to a congragation. I'm glad that I have one week of no training before the trip. I get to make use of the free time to prepare for the trip spiritually and mentally and the songs devotions and lessons for vbs and skits.

Yin lin, if you want the link it is: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oF-gxD2_Gn0

no.257

2007-11-28T15:18:00.000+08:00

I will not work in retail or whatever job that requires me to stand so long. Luckily, its for the needy communities of Cambodia. The cip thing at Metro is exhausting. Not because we stand there and socialise and listen to the naggy uncle who claims he is guarding the money box, but because we have to stand for hours and they don't give us chairs! I'll be at Paragon this coming monday at 3pm =/ Thank you Bernerd for giving me two slots instead of four!

I attempted to cook. I FAILED PLEASE!!! I wanted to fry something. Before I could even place the food on the frying pan, I dropped the oily frying pan on the floor. and then I panicked... then I tried mopping the floor so it won't be that oily.... I'll stick to instant noodles and packet food.

focus on the rabbits, not the kiddo.

now the guy next to me.

Eeee. Its raining again. Eeee. I'm turning seventeen. Eeee. I'm getting older already. Eeee. Don't give me cake. Eeee. Look at Benedict in the second picture. ROFL!!!! Eeee. That eddie guy thought I was a malay =( Eeee. I can actually reach the high notes now!

no.256

2007-11-24T16:56:00.000+08:00

Met up with Ak, Saman and How sun for lunch =D

Saw Pan Ling Ling and her family and a SISSY waiter who walks funny.

Let's meet up to (eat and laugh) more often!!

LOL! Look at how sun's face!!!

no.255

2007-11-23T00:18:00.000+08:00

07S04 had a class outing on the 22nd. Nine turned up. That's not even one third of the class please!!! But I had quite a fun time. We went cycling, then we ate, then we had a 'picnic', people flew kites that samantha brought, ate somemore, cycled back to return the bikes, ate somemore and then we bowled. I got a sun burn. Kite flying was not that successful, I don't think the kite actually flew in the air for a long time. Bowling was fun too. Wee Cheng bowled for the first time and kind of played the best~ Argh. Foreign talent stealing the limelight from local talent! Oh david was such a lame-mo. Making up songs on the spot with almost every song dedicated to er wee cheng the reversi champ!
david and his 'special' umbrella. Just need to press a button or something.

P.S
I miss you too Rachel!
and LZ!!! I want to check your handphone wallpaper! I know got my spastic face! HEEHEE*

no.253

2007-11-18T22:48:00.001+08:00

Remember the bible story "Jesus Feeds the Five Thousand"? Mark 6:30-44 Bro. Kelvin showed us a video(song) of this famous childhood bible story, the one where Jesus fed the thousands with only FIVE loaves of bread and TWO fishes. Here's Five loaves and two fishes by Corrinne May

no.252

2007-11-16T21:58:00.000+08:00

I have attended quite a few funerals so far and none of which got me thinking about my parent's funeral except today's. I was at my godbrother's grandpapa funeral today at Mandai. I thought my father was jokingly asking me what will I say at his funeral while we were waiting for the rest to come. Hah. I was thinking, "the sarcastic father who never thinks about others feelings before opening his mouth".

Then when the coffin was being 'wheeled' into the furnace, I saw Austin crying. I didn't even dare cry when my grandmother was 'wheeled' in a couple of years back. And, Aunty Jenny wasn't crying and Aaron who is 3 or 4 years, pointed downstairs asking her "gong gong down there is it?".

During the funeral service, Aunty Jenny went up to give a speech-kind-of-thing of her father. She quoted what aaron said during the wake the day before. Because the grandpapa lost his voice this past september, he asked will gonggong be able to talk again? She told him, yes he will. He will have a healthier body, voice everything.

Back at home, my father asked me again what will I say at his funeral service. Hah. Maybe I'll sing a song, his favourite hymm or chorus. Maybe I'll take out a camera and start taking photos. I'll try not to breakdown like Aunty Jenny. Because I'm suppose to be happy. Finally, he's going to join the Lord and there will be no more worries, no more disappointments. There's this part of the hymm Blessed Assurance that goes "Perfect submission, all is at rest. I in my savior am happy and blest; ..... Filled with His goodness, lost in His love."

So, what will you say at your parent's funeral?

no.251

2007-11-15T22:00:00.000+08:00

Went out with my retards =D We watched Bratz(wahahhahaha) and took neoprints. Well... Bratz was a nice and 'touching' movie... not so bimbo-ish. I will recommend good friends to watch the show together.

no.250

2007-11-15T00:03:00.000+08:00

O Romeo, Romeo! Wherefore art thou Romeo?

Deny thy father and refuse thy name;

Or, if thou wilt not, be but sworn my love,

And I'll no longer be a Cheang?

Shakespeare is sexy

[edit]

OMG. The flying helicopter with Ekin Cheng staring in it has ended. No more 10pm chinese drama show to watch... STUPID EKIN CHENG A.K.A KEFENG KISSED CHUQI! My heart just shattered into a gazillion pieces! Argh. Luckily it was only a one second kind of kiss. I would have just cry in front of the television like some aunty watching korean drama. Argh. I love the part when Kefeng confessed his undying love for chuqi through a 'game' that he invented. So old-fashion but I like. He made her open boxes with a letter of confession in each box. And there were KEYS in it.

I have been retained. Expected it, so please don't ever bring up the subject of.. "so, what's next for you?" or "Poly or what now?" or "You planning to stick with the same combi mah?". If I feel like bringing up this particular subject, then you talk about it to me. IF NOT DO NOT BRING THIS MATTER UP. I'll just get angry okay.

Training suck today. But... Finally the rest of the girls team have shown improvements!!! Like they can "open" ball better than before already. etc. JIA YOU JIA YOU!!!

So its been almost 4 months. Argh...

Lastly, I'm so happy for my DARLING RACHIE HOE HOE HOE!!! ITS SO NICE HEARING THAT YOU'RE SO IN LOVE NOW AND HAPPILY DATING!!! I WISH YOU TWO LOVEBIRDS LONG LIFE AND NO NO DIRTY DIRTY BUSINESS AH!!! I shall stop calling you bitch for the while. But.. you're still my darling rachie hoe hoe hoe the bitch! HAHAHAHA. I'm glad that you have found someone to go crazy with and ahem ahem* You know what I'm talking about. Just don't forget about your dear CASSANDRA okay!

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着

你的身影这么近我却抱不到

没有地球太阳还是会绕

没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单

你说依赖是我们的阻碍

就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱

当作我最后才明白

- - -《彩虹》

To Youths going on mission trips, take care of your safety and be yourself. Let them be touched through our actions and do not worry about what will happen in the future. God has made plans for each and everyone of us, we will reap what we sow in the end.

I want to own a whole dvd/vcd set of Harry Potter or a crumpler at least. [/edit]

no.249

2007-11-13T10:18:00.000+08:00

Shitty Photos. But 07S04, you're still my love =D

Hahaha. Like he not being here but there affects my daily happenings. Argh.

no.248

2007-11-10T22:21:00.000+08:00

There are a few reasons to be happy about today =D

no.247

2007-11-07T01:00:00.000+08:00

Lord, I need a miracle

Fill my life with song, and let me sing forevermore.
In other words, please be true.

Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right.

And I wonder, are you reading this?

no.246

2007-11-05T17:26:00.000+08:00

Yea, morning bus rides and solitaire. If you're reading this, I'm ready for a new adventure.

I'm meeting rachie later. Suppose to be half an hour later at holland V. HAWHAW. I was at Snow City yesterday with the church kiddies. Helping out~ Glenn the "man" who wore no "thick" jacket from snow city or his other misc cold wear. Snow city sucks. They don't give me thick socks to warm my toes. I thought my toes were going to come out.

I want to skip training(if there is this saturday). I refuse to train to my best ability. I'm getting bored of the whole "be enthusiastic" about training thing. Maybe I should quit and join... Media Club! Always at the frontline during school events. So happening. Okay all this training thing is because training is outdoor and its like once a week?! its so recreational. Short-interest span. Well, the team can do without me =D

Fifth aunty is flying in from Adelaide tomorrow!!! YAY-Ness. Loads of drama to watch/hear for two weeks! ahhahaha.

I'm going to be terribly late. 20 minutes more to 6 and I'm still at home. Lazybum... I better start preparing my devotions for the trip and memorising the lyrics, tomorrow.

Then again, even if you're reading this, you may not even reply =/

BACK! with photos =D

Role-play with desmond over msn is so much fun!
Guess who!

DT いいです !!! => All people want is someone to listen. says:

i ask my mp3 friend to lend u his headphone

no.245

2007-11-02T21:24:00.000+08:00

definitely 100% more happier and less worried. What to say, my ol' friends rock!!! Yes, I love you all.

no.242

2007-11-01T00:21:00.000+08:00

Runaway runaway,

Hold, Hold you but you're going away.

There's a perfect hormonal answer to why the sudden burst of emotions. Its ending soon =D Went back to Shuqun yesterday. ZOMG. I got a cultural shock. After not hearing so much oh-so-vulgar hokkien words and seeing ill-disciplined students showing disrespect to such a ?loving? teacher, I must admit I'm kind of afraid to go back. I'm a peer tutor or so they say. What more I'm teaching chemistry, the subject I scored the lowest for promos. Luckily its sec 3 chem... I'll be happy when they show up on friday and not staying at home chionging maple. There's another session this friday and next week too I think. Something to do at least and maybe something that will keep my mind of worrying over the promotional status. And If I retain, at least I won't be thinking much of it because there are other things that I need to concentrate on. Must remain positive!

My oral presentation is at three. And I'll take approximately 3minutes 42 seconds to finish my part of the presentation. Been timing myself twice. I got a new crush on a Hong Kong actor. Ekin something. Probably cause he's such a nice boyfriend in the show he's acting in. And He has muscles. lol. One more thing for first impressions. NUMBER 1: Nice ass. NUMBER 2: Buff body NUMBER 3: Confidence Don't you dare copy me and find a guy that has all three and make me jealous of you. There's something to celebrate about =D I Cassandra Cheang, is finally single for more than a month in I do not know how long.

I have new songs in my ipod now =D Rachel I got a song that sings "As we sing Holy, Holy, Holy" perfect for Mother Theresa. Sigh, but a nice song like that, should not be wasted on him but on ME!!

Zomg, I'm being teased by ronnie for having a typo error "gd ngiht". I can't believe this. Thankfully that ain't ym. hahaha. That irritating bitch. And after reading irritating bitch he will feel offended and then be angry maybe.

Six finger teacher is leaving sqs. DAMN! And Mr Tham does not have cancer. That's what I heard. Okay, he cannot have cancer because he's a good advisor(in a way). Byebye. Long wordy post.

Next up:

Camwhoring with azri
Camwhoring with rach & lz
Singing practice at Joseph's
A' Boys volleyball friendly on friday
Deepavalli - church
Results *Yikes!

no.243

2007-10-30T21:20:00.000+08:00

What a joke. Just when I thought I won't be able to go for saturday december trainings, Alvin has confirm the meeting timings to late afternoon. Thank God! I need not worry about having to be at two places at one time. YAY YAY YAY! The hall better be ours for trainings.

Less one thing to worry about now.

BEHOLD HE COMES RIDING ON THE CLOUDS!

no.242

2007-10-28T15:31:00.000+08:00

Hello. Fellowship at Joseph's place on saturday after training was FUN. I mean it. We played 'zip zap', charades(christian version) and Taboo. We had pears and something else and water. HAHAH, it reminded me of that time we were watching movies at david's place. Fruits and juice. This is what you call healthy eating I suppose. Derek and the two Samuel Lim's are going to Puchong as well. How cool is that!!! We are having a join youth camp with the Wangsar and Puchong Youth at some 'resort'. Not bad~ Now that chinese is over and OP is almost over as well, I can use whatever free time I have preparing for the trip and build a closer relationship with God =D I'll be in Malaysia for half of December!!!! Ain't that cool. God may be answering my prayers. Well I asked for no training on my birthday. HAH. Most probably there will be a Puchong meeting. So I get to miss training!

My bloody right arm is injured again and my ankles are feeling more sore. I need to get my voice back by wednesday for OP. I can't even sing a G note properly =( Let alone speak properly. Please pray for me.

YOU DON'T KNOW HOW HAPPY I AM NOW. and WORRIED...

Thanks o7s04. You lot sure rock. I'll miss you all, even though I ain't that close.

no.241

2007-10-23T20:29:00.000+08:00

For those who think your results suck and you're not going to promote... You have tried your best. No point crying over something that you can't change. You can only hope they promote you or pray that whatever decisions you're going to make in the future is the right thing for you. I won't be typing about my results until the 9 of november.

So look at the pictures and laugh. HAH.

I'm so tempted to buy the printed tee from that annoymous person who tagged. I love the printed tee "I love volleyball" Ahh. If she discounts it to maybe 15 bucks, maybe i'll BUY. SHE should read this... =D

no.240

2007-10-17T22:42:00.000+08:00

DIE. I think I said something so wrong. I can't redeem myself anymore!!!! Dieness!!! It was going so well until... Wah seh. Die already. Die already. Lucky this one not promo, or I will die ah. Just a few words and I die already. Howness... I felt it(so called) then I sprouted some nonesense then aiyah... chakachakachuchu =(

Hah. I may be over-reacting a lil' bit.

no.239

2007-10-16T22:44:00.000+08:00

Hello. I think I need to meetup with ak,sofia,saman,azri and xm a.s.a.p once I'm done with PW and chinese. Or maybe before I'm done with all these. I want to cry already. Especially when I get retained. Ym better be by his phone, I may cry.

Its been quite a while since I'm stuck between trainings and church. The last time I chose both and I almost.... I have promised to dedicate my time to the mission trip. I shall go. I'm not going for training this saturday! John weigand was in town to give us some singing thing for 5 days. Haha, I went for only one day. He's a lawyer. Hetold me ice-cream was a healthfood and I actually believed for a moment.

Joshua ain't my E.C anymore. Not worth looking, he hides his butt so I can't see.
This camera necklace thingy that I bought from Thailand... Well. I didn't know until today thanks to rachel that it is a LIGHTER. wasted... I thought it was 'unique', now I don't dare to wear it.
I enjoyed the trip to sentosa with some of the youth =D We didn't use the bible(my sis scare me ah). We played ultimate frisbee and handball. I kope the pics from andrea's blog. The weather was good and bad. Good because it was cloudy and there's no sun to burn my skin. Bad because it rained and the sand was a bit disgusting.
Many thanks to rachel for shopping with me today. Although spending money lightened myself a lil' I'm still back to the "shit, i'm going to retain" state. But at least it helped a lil'. I shall go work and then have money to shop =D after pw.

He said don't wear shoes to the beach. And look at the number of guys who wore shoes. HAWHAW*

There won't be a volleyball chalet =( Hopefully there will be a volleyball camp or something.

They forget.Meanfreaks.At least give me cookies and brownies to make me happy.

no.238

2007-10-12T23:37:00.000+08:00

They had friends who protected them

Well, not everything are replacements. People walk in and out of our lifes and leave a mark just like footprints in the sand. Well, it disappears after sometime. Me and my itchy fingers, I should not have agreed on going sentosa. And My sister is scaring me ah, she didn't mention any girl going. I die. I don't want to go sentosa with guys only, so weird leh. HAH. You found a Joshua. HAH. The new E.C whom I don't get to see often =( he ponned econs today. So I kinda believe what my parents said... about "puppy love". Hmm. I don't know about tomorrow or the future, but I know God has made plans. My playmaker. Well, here I am, I don't have much to give. But here's my heart and I lay it at your feet.

Plan 1: Forget about the existence of cigar. Rachel, I resisted the temptation to go clubbing. That's why I rejected your offer.

Plan 2: Think about plan 2.

We re-named - - to Mother Teresa!!! I'm trying hard to imagine - - in Mother Teresa's robes. BWAHAHAHAHHA. May you stop talking about things you will never do. Because that would mean you are lying. Bad bad boy!

no.237

2007-10-09T21:46:00.000+08:00

The rest of the phootos can be found at rachel's blog y'all! But there isn't any photos of neo.
I'm going to the beach on saturday again, but this time with the church youth. HAWHAW. No need to borrow frisbee to play from random people.
There's 3, THREE, 3, THREE hours of loo ai wei tomorrow =( I die. I die. I die.
Why NANA! What's so great about NANA! WHY NANA! Stupid NANA. Seriously, what's so great about NANA?!
Breaking up and making up. Its that hard ah? And when it happens to your relatives, what can you do to help? To fly all the way thousands of miles to play the role as a mediator? Or what?

I want springbok to win. I want springbok to win. I like smit now. But I wouldn't mind the finals to be between the roses and springbok. Then there will be johnny and smit =D I am deprived of rugby.

almost time to trim my hair =D

no.236

2007-10-07T23:12:00.000+08:00

He looked beyond My Fault is such a beautiful slow song. The singing practice went well =D Thank God Joseph's singing sop too. And He can reach the notes that Joanne and I can't reach. I'll reach those taogays soon. My muscles are aching from yesterday's training. So I suppose everyone else's muscles aches too. Do take care =D The bang on the kneeeeee that I got from crashing with jy still hurts very badly. HAHA. At least the bruise is quite visible now.

I have decided what I want for my birthday. My yearly birthday gift to myself. A walk to remember dvd/vcd. I don't think I want anything green this year. Or PINK. Or BLUE. Neither do I want a cake but I wouldn't mind cupcakes =D please come faster 1 december.

22 more days to Chinese A's! FTW! 3 hours of chinese lessons straight every other day with LAW =( She's going to bully me!!!

Finally =D It took me more than a week...

Wouldn't mind pinching those... >.<

no.235

2007-10-05T22:10:00.000+08:00

Re-burnt. Re-sprain.

Although we got disqualified and yu xuan's efforts like went down the big canal... I'm sure we all had fun as a class. We'll remember the countless number of triangles we heard and chim chim tactics from yu xuan =D I'm so proud of you man. I'm voting you best captain!!! But then, you shout a bit too much. I loved the last match!!! David the stunt man. I'm not cool enough to do slick frisbee stunts. We should all play like that all the time, at least we still managed to score and HAVE FUN!!

I think he must have been gym-ming man. Look at his chest. Favourite old morning pillow. I should not have stared, I should not have stared, I should not have stared. Shitxz. He musn't retain. HAH!

LOOK AT WEE CHENG. JUST LOOK AT HIM!

chaota =( We all got issues =(

no.234

2007-10-04T23:17:00.000+08:00

Look, charlie brown sings! Argh, I sound so horrible alone. I can't reach the notes of a saprano =( Its tooooooooooo high =(

no.232

2007-10-04T01:23:00.000+08:00

I can't keep running away from everything...

I'm back =D

A thai woman told me "you can touch me" on the train. I thought she was a lesbian in need of some touch.

I almost died. In the market and on the road and while shopping.

I got the worst motion sickness. On the plane because of the winds so there was tuberlance and then I was reading a book that made everything worst. I didn't do my math - velocity. I saw women, "women" and not many men. The "women" were extremely beautiful and sexy, but some I suppose didn't have enough cash to fully beautify themselves so that's why they look neither here nor there.

I was not robbed either. But I walked here and there to find slippers and fbt crap. Horrible man. Fbt no sale. For men only somemore. Maybe I was at the wrong department luh~ And I realised that there was volleyball matches at the same stadium we went to the last time, when I was about to go into the security area at the airport.

This was an alcohol free trip. Very safe and tiring.

I miss the tv so much. The tv or the satelite dish at the hotel was screwed up man. Only cnn and discovery channel~ Liars. They said there was HBO and Hallmark too.

There's gonna be frisbee tomorrow =D No comments on that one yet.

Then there's gonna be interhouse frisbee on friday. We better win something for our last minute efforts. Can win a medal each leh! Maybe even have extra!

Volleyball and meeting on saturday =D Looking forward to the meeting!!! Its my turn to lift my up my voice to HIM! GAGAGAGAGAGA. Luckily I didn't have too much spicy food. Tml will be day 1 of eating less, exercising more. HAHAHA. Bullshit cass.

no.232

2007-09-30T22:38:00.000+08:00

Bad bad sunburn =(

And Thailand's gonna dehydrate my already dried up skin =(

Worse still i have a rash on both of my enlarged thighs...

I hope its the allergies to the beach(wahhahaha) and not beef.

And tml's flight is so early... Gotta check in at 6? Yawns. And then I'm arriving back in Singapore on wed night. So most prob can't have the movie marathon thing at my house. Maybe at someone's house(please let it be at someone's house).

I Miss ketchup argh...stupid cass =(

lol. neo was so yesterday... I don't like old people.

Samuel smth has got some major love issues man... He said "Love is temporary. You'll get ditched eventually." WAHAHAHHA. He never fails to say something funny every bible class.

But then again, I'm not saying. My bad =(

no.231

2007-09-29T22:55:00.000+08:00

NEOOOOOOO!!!!

Thanks gals for today =D

NEOOOOOOO!!!!

no.230

2007-09-28T23:26:00.000+08:00

NANA YOU SUCK! Nana is not equals to joash. LOL. You look quite good but then you are so B-O-R-I-N-G! Die manz... I forgot what I wanted to type. hah Just remembered one. YOU BIG MOUTH BITCH* SHIT YOU LUH! SHIT YOU.

Hah. I almost cried.

You know I really don't mind if... if.. but... but I doubt it will ever happen.

SHIT YOU DRAG QUEENS! HAHAHHAHAHAHA

no.229

2007-09-27T22:15:00.001+08:00

They both said the same thing. How freaky is that!

This is bad. I haven cry! AHHH!

later during training i cry how... crappy MAN!

Bullshit cass bullshit.

So its over and I'm trying to calculate how much I lost.

I'm not that crazy enough now cause I didn't think of piercing my ears(i was suppose to peirce my ears after i broke up with ivan). And I'm so not going to get myself drunk, not even close to tipsy. Or set the school on fire. Although cigar sounds great. Don't say I go smoke hor. last thing I'll ever try is that. I'm bloody sad and disappointed. Men. I don't want anymore until dec. I don't want anymore until dec. I don't want anymore until dec. Haha. No one to save me on my birthday. Damn it.

I may be going BANGKOK for some retail therapy next week. I'm crossing my fingers that they have good hotel rates!!

The "class" is going to watch a movie together tomorrow. HAH. I think I can count with my fingers how many people will be there. I know for sure xian guang and wee cheng won't be there and of course sonia and her good friends =D

I'm pissed. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Wah LAO I should have broken up with him on saturday =X ahahaha. Now he knows.

no.228

2007-09-26T19:14:00.000+08:00

chem calculations killed me =(

Because Chem was horrible, I have to mug like crazy for bio.

and they said to T,H and P.
hmmm.
Worst then before.
LIKE THEY CARE.

Singapore needs Supre. Singapore needs dotti. Singapore needs cotton on. Singapore has GAP. Singapore has Forever 21. Singapore has Topshop. Singapore has a very good and fkdup education that serves to drive us all nuts.

Most probably retaining. No confidence. Then I can't play main 6 already.

no.227

2007-09-23T20:31:00.000+08:00

guess what...

we had accapella singing session instead of bible class =D

i'm looking forward to next week!

practising of songs, trainings, ultimate frisbee

my father's so cheapskate, ask me to get chenyi or irvin to teach me how to play the guitar.

and he doesn't like the idea of me wanting to self-retain.

Mercy, Justice and Humility.

Guess maybe I have mercy. That's bad.

Shows how unqualified I am as a christian.

it feels like the 13th of July

No more pleading.

HAH. I must plan out my dieting thing.

My father says I'm a fatty pom pom now. SHITX. I am only 48kg

FAT MEH? Maybe my thighs have enlarge quite a bit.

HAH. I shall try running along bukit batok road.

or RACHEL LIANG ZHENG WANT TO GO SUN TANNING?!

AK, AZRI, WE CAN FEAST! SUSHI, ICE CREAM, CAM WHORING?

HOW MANY MORE DAYS TIL RAMADAN IS OVERRRR?!

Cookies don't work now =(

Gummies too =(

HAH. Maybe some rugby with Johnny!!! Or BARKER!

no.226

2007-09-22T15:34:00.000+08:00

it feels like the 10th of July

no.225

2007-09-19T17:57:00.000+08:00

I'M SORRY! I KNOW ITS TOO LATE... YEA I SHOULDN'T HAVE SAID ALL THOSE THINGS ETC. HAPPY? I DON'T DO SUCH THINGS OKAY. HAPPY NOW? OR YOU WANT ME TO PUT UP A VERY VERY EMBARRASSING PHOTO OF MYSELF ALL OVER THE INTERNET THEN YOU'RE HAPPY. JUST FORGET ABOUT MY BIRTHDAY LOR. I DON'T CARE LE. SOMETIMES WE ARE ON GOOD TERMS SOMETIMES WE ARE NOT. WE ARE SUPPOSE TO BE ON GOOD TERMS YOU KNOW, BESTFRIENDS. WHAT THE HELL LOR. HMPMH. EACH TIME I'M PISSED OFF WITH MY BF YOU HAVE TO WORSEN IT HUH. I DON'T HATE YOU LOR AND I'M NOT OUT TO SABOTAGE YOU LOR. SEVENTEEN LE, WHY TREAT EVERYTHING SO SERIOUSLY? NOT AS IF I DON'T HAVE A MORE EMBARRASSING PHOTO OF YOU OR WHAT MORE A VIDEO. SORRY.

no.224

2007-09-15T17:12:00.000+08:00

I only slept for 10 minutes while watching Pride and Prejudice! Its a very nice but boring movie with desperate woman/girls wanting to get engaged. Raging hormones~Were those chested men that hot? I'll read the book after reading "the sinner".
I'm still not studying enough. And I still HATE MATH.
JOASH =)
Promos are nearing!!! YAY!!
Holidays are coming!!!
MORE FUN, JOY AND LAUGHTER!!!
Go listen to "that's when I love you" on Youtube.com!!! Its the bombxz manz!!!
Fact 1: I love to eat
Fact 2: I love to sleep
Fact 3: I love hsaoj
Eee... yi wen's name looks weird when spelt backwards.
I'm beginning to like reading christian relationship books. I still laugh at what they write but at least now I think about what they say.

no.223

2007-09-10T22:21:00.000+08:00

Today was NERD DAY. I will not embarrass my friends or myself by posting the pictures. But it sure was fun today. Chemistry was okay. Not that scared of chemistry formulae. They were friendly today =D But I mixed up nucleophile and electrophile. I better pass.

Joash,
You may be short
You may have more pimples than me
You may be muscular (oh whatever)
You may be younger than me
You may not be as mature
You may have very small eyes
You may have a nice butt
You may think that you have a big chest
You may live in yew tee (no link)
You may love Man Utd
.....
But I still love you.
because you can cook(you say say say i haven even try), talk, eat, sleep and read. You can also...

no.222

2007-09-08T12:41:00.000+08:00

I will:
Go for volleyball trainings
Learn to play the guitar
Ace my chinese?!
Be more active in YTSA so I can go to thailand
Attend wednesday bible class
Go for singspirations
Memorise scripture texts
HAVE FUN WITH OL' MATES and EAT WITH AZRI
Skip training on my birthday >.<
Save up for Joash's present
Learn how to dance
Cook a meal (for myself)
Find a job and earn some money
Buy cigar with rachel!!! (i'm so so the holy one)
Make full use of the talents God has blessed me with (okay, I'll have to identify my talents)

AFTER PROMOS!!! Joash not included. HAHA.

no.221

2007-09-03T20:35:00.000+08:00

someone slap me. I'm in love. All ash's fault.
Promos coming somemore.
Die ah. Someone slap me!
Aiyah! It must be the love odour from his armpit?
hahaha.

okay, I'm definitely moving on now =D
Not so very scared now, but ...

no.220

2007-08-28T22:18:00.000+08:00

=D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D

ahhh.. its just the honeymoon kind of period but still...

=D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D

Met up with scats =D, nathan, wei sheng, jia hao blah blah blah... All these poly people, having their holidays now. Our lifes are updated for now I suppose. There's gonna be lunch on monday with Tan and a few of us. Maybe I'll just accept his treat =X

=D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D

I'm happy today.

Teacher's Day celebration in pioneer was good. At least better than shuqun =X My whole day was GREAT!!! Even tuition. Stupid racist jokes~ And and and I feel good knowing my work. More motivated to memorise all those mechanism and bio notes.

Because PW's such a bitch. I'm going to chiong PW and heck care it until promos are over.

I'm still H-A-P-P-Y!!!!

no.219

2007-08-25T23:28:00.000+08:00

you are scared again.

I'm stuck at definitions and tandemly repetitive DNA.

Boring. Boring. Boring.

finally, its all gone. All of it. Pictures, documents and gifts(some).

whoever said it was easy~

My boyfriend cooks and bakes =D

Ahahahaha. I hope he does housework too =x

Because you can't trust someone so easily now.

I was watching mtvtaiwan some girly program. They linked shoes to how we are in relationships. okay, i actually like heels. So i'm "princess fiona". Whatever they said was quite true actually. But the show made me think how demanding i was last time. Ah damn, sorry. So there has to be humour, loads of talking and ...... i forget already. I'm not confident for the upcoming bio test. I'm not prepared for the econs test that I missed and I suppose there will be a make up for it. Since education has been tested, some other positive externalities will be tested then. Teacher's day is coming, so is denise's birthday!!! Holiday! "my arse" lah. must quote liang zheng! Ronrich is in my tuition class. One more person I know =D And maybe we will be having bio tuition together too! I hope all the money my father is wasting on my education will help me to get through promos. Like how it helped me to pass my add math and chem during the O's. I will not thank my chinese tutor because I believed I passed through my own efforts. Esp the one who said my chinese was "bu ke jiu yao". Damn her lah. Cupcakes obsession is so back now. Yummilicious* I don't mind getting 24 cupcakes for my birthday. and in my fav colour somemore. I'll love you to bits ah! I'm still stuck at definitions and tandemly reptitive DNA. There's still Control of gene expression and sex pili eww. There's churchie tml and visiting my popo urn? at some weird place. If I ever enter NTU, I will go to the malay cemetry there and buy keropok to eat. I;ll also buy flowers and place it at some random untouched grave. At least then they won't be so sad that no one visits them. They are wasting our land anyways." Get a urn like my popo, save some space!"

no.218

2007-08-23T20:53:00.000+08:00

bye bye qis =(

I'll miss you!!!

go figure =D

no.217

2007-08-18T17:38:00.000+08:00

I'm happy =D

Daddy said I have grown an inch taller!!!!

I'm happy=D

because there's joash? hahah

I'm happy=D

Tomorrow's sunday!

I'm sad =(

Promos are coming!!!

It goes round and round and round. Man, I'm sick and tired of it. It goes round and round and round. Man, spare me please. It goes round and round and square. Man, bless me and give me some extra energy. It goes left, right, back and forward. Man, I'm thinking of the past, present and future. It goes round and round and round again. Man, sometimes I wonder why.

It goes Zoooooom!* like a shooting star. Man, are you confused?

no.216

2007-08-14T22:51:00.000+08:00

I'm with Joash

definitely smth new

no.215

2007-08-14T05:14:00.000+08:00

MISSES <3

no.214

2007-08-12T20:54:00.000+08:00

Replies to tags:
Wei Zhang:Haha, its okay luh~ catch up some other time =D
LZ, ASH,JY,RACHEL: I'M BACK AND GONNA BE HERE FOR SOME TIME. Miss you all.
Taz: Enjoyed my trip so far =D
Denise: Thanks?! lol. A bit random right?

YAY! I'M B-A-C-K from mosquito/ant/whatever horrible insects invested TIOMAN! The trip was SUPERB!!! I'll dare to play soccer on a muddy field from today onwards and try not to kill anymore insects unless necessary. eh, photos later. So I went SNORKELLING with andrea and maureen!!! Saw parrot fish and loads of corals and other species of fishes that I do not know of. But they were so cute and pretty!!! We had intertidal walk like on the first night. I saw loads of species! Including corals and cowries! oh oh oh and a flatworm and a octopus and sea stars and etc etc. Then we had forest nature walks(it freak the shit out of me actually cause forest=mud=insects=die) But I got to learn mroe about the stuff in there and realised how pitiful our environment is. So yea, I got to appreciate our environment better. Kudos to cass the insects killer(if I can control). There are A GAZILLION MORE STUFF, but I'm not going to type it all here, just got back.

The last night was F-U-N. Because we(eileen and huai zhe) talked about relationships first then we went to get some alcohol and mroe alcohol and then HZ was talking about the negative of drinking excessively blah blah blah. In the end he drank. We had beer too, and he didn't want but in the end, he still drank from my cup. So I'm gonna quote him that "his thing cannot stand up". LOL. He got so red, like redder from his usual red. It was so funny cause I think he was quite high and eileen and I were making fun of him. Eileen's really loud and funny! hahaha. And when we were playing "beahc volley" on the last morning, zomg. I thought I did come back without any minor cuts whatsoever except mozzie bites. Damn HZ and I had to bang into each other. That freak didn't cut his nail, so I saw blood and lost concentration. Andrea and Maureen were fun people too =D room-mates! and well, denise too!

Our room toilet was DISGUSTING! Trails of ants of two species on our mirror and behind the toilet bowl another species of ants. HORRIBLE PLEASE! Then there were other creepy crawlies that had some migration thing into our room. YUCKS! I killed a bee though=/ The squid for our meals were fantastic!! So fresh! But the chicken was horrible. But we just eat sleep eat sleep and then field trip then... vicious cycle. Pure gluttony.

The trip was fruitful. Cause I not only learnt about the environment, I got to know some people better. BUT I MISS EVERYONE OF YOU PEOPLE!!!! Ride back home was horrible, cause I had to pee urgently and it was cold and there won't be any toilet break until a few hours later. I thought maybe I could entertain myself with HZ's bible, but I had to sleep. lol. Then I woke up and drew whatever I could remember from Tioman.

What a way to start of my first cyber day after a hiatus is:

LOL! HE ADDED ME! OH I just remembered, THERE WERE NO LEECHES!!!! YES YES YES!

Goodbye orientation loves. Goodbye orientation loves.

no.213

2007-08-08T18:44:00.000+08:00

Aites. What if it fails like what if what if. Its happening all over again. Maybe this time, it should be better. So I have to learn from my past mistakes and not fast forward it. Aites. To mates, I'm happy. Hah, I'll make the best out of it and well take it as it is. Something new to experience!!

Watched Perfect Strangers with joash, jian yun, denise, joanna and two of her friends. The trailer for the movie was fantastic, but the movie was kind of a letdown. Somehow the movie twist itself right at the end, which was the CLIMAX!

Today's National Day celebration was s-h-o-r-t!!! I'm starting to really really regret signing up for the Tioman trip. I wish I am sick like Jin hang is now. I'll miss the fireworks display and the familar national day songs and the long holiday break. Aiyoh, I don't want to go!!! I AM DAMN SCARED OF LEECHES AH!!! I NEED URBAN LIFE! uuuurrrrban~

Ash is suspended from training until promos. Oh man~ What's God trying to tell me?! haha, maybe I can still try my best and still promote with dilligience and some motivation. That's why I can still go for trainings?

lovelikelovelikelovelike <3

[edit]the ice queen has definitely melted[/edit]

no.212

2007-08-05T21:57:00.000+08:00

*a spark in thy heart

3 weeks. That's the longest. I can never ever go past that duration ay. SIEW SIEW SIEW. What a surprise! Alright, God answered my prayer so slowly. But nonetheless, he answered but prolly 3 years back I didn't tell him the other et cetra requirements. Oh wells. I shall pray in great detail next time. There's always a first time for eveything! Daddy says we are going Japan next year to see snow. I hope he's not giving me false hope again. Because I wouldn't mind going dubai or Australia but never ever korea. We just want to take nice photographs and see who's photos turn out better ay? So that was our conversation over dinner today.

I was doing work with ash again before meeting pw mates. Its a pity that JE library didn't have any seats for us to do our work. I wanted to dirnk hot chocolate from galilee~ I finished econs hw and did stupid reflections. P=MC, efficiency, Ped, Yed, Ced, scarcity, price mechanism, inputs, outputs, MSB, MSC, MPB, MEC!! PW was FUN!! The next meeting we have, I'm going to implement video-whoring!!!

1 cor 13:4-10

"...never fails"

no.211

2007-08-04T20:28:00.000+08:00

We watched this while others while mending the booth for Open House. THIS SHOW IS THE BOMBZ MAN! A very random kind of movie! Open House was a flop!About 95% of the people who came today were pioneers and and and our saturday was gone just like that. We could have training. Ahahha. I grabbed ash's butt today. I must have thought that was the ball at that moment and yea I wanted to "drop" ball.

I took pictures during my long walk from Orchard to Bugis. Kinda dissappointed. There weren't many interesting nice shots.

Sweaty palms. lalalalalala =D Fun Dance and bad odour. So glad he is no longer my eyecandy. HORRIBLE BODY ODOUR PLEASE. 180 and his melody! I don't want to go Tioman with the school! Geee~ Just friends.

no.210

2007-08-02T00:49:00.000+08:00

Studying out has drained out all my energy. "but those who wait on the Lord will find new strength... will run and not grow weary..." Isaiah 40:31 Well, that's what keeping me going at the moment.

She runs.
gracefully.
no stopping.
no turning back.

no.209

2007-07-29T22:51:00.000+08:00

I am finally finally finally starting to complete most of my tutorials. Lazy bum~ I'm going to spend my sunday afternoons in the library completing my hw and not leave my umbrella there. I watched "Alone" with the volleyballers on saturday. Damn the show!! Freaking eyelinered reflections. A total waste of make up please! The show was alright, "Shutter" is obviously so much better. I'm so gonna make denise watch "Shutter"!!! We finally ordered our training tees! Red =D

I'm looking forward to wednesday! Even though wednesday= SPA exam, it is also = training and the simpsons! provided they don't cancel it at the last minute... Only happening thing happening... Monday's gonna be long because there's economics crap after school and tuesday looks stupid because I end off my day with gp. But I get to see my eyecandies one after another on tuesday! And eating vegetarian during recess for some particular reason.

He's a scumbag don't you know? Ahh... Gotta let this period pass quickly. Or be like joanna, keep myself busy busy. I shall stop polluting my mind with what others are talking about. Go with what I think. Bulls***! I wouldn't mind if... Cause it did be fun. I wouldn't mind if... Cause I have never tried. I wouldn't mind if... But if....

All hail Cassandra Maharani Ji!

no.208

2007-07-22T23:04:00.000+08:00

Class photo taking. Mrs Chan's pink lipstick. CIP. Friendly malays. Studying at Mac's with vballers. Vball tee. Trainings. Tutorials. Upcoming Tests. Soccer. Guitars and their names. Tioman Trip. SPA. EOM. Written Report. Friends like my vball mates. Funny hair(HAHAHAHA. FUNNY PLEASE AND U-G-L-Y). Breakouts. Sorethroat. Vegetarian. Harry Potter. Some thoughts and no tears. Shrek ears. Stares. Love Songs. 200 Pound Beauty. Scriptures. Bimbo antics. Hymms. Confessions. Never back to you. National Day. Volleyball. Volleyball. KL trip. Truth. With wings we soar up high.

no.207

2007-07-17T23:49:00.000+08:00

This is pathetic. I have only typed the first sentence for my EOM which needs to be handed in by this thursday as draft number 1. And I thought yesterday night was productive because I finally sat down and did my tutorials dilligently. If my father replies my email and gives me the green light. I'm going to the same tuition centre as rachel somewhere in Boon Lay there. I hope it is someplace I know about in BL. yikes*

I'm glad that I'm "cheeky crappy cheerful cass" again. Not enough lah. I want to have the word hard working also. I must stop lying to myself and just be sad when I need to. Well, its fun you know being single and all. But damn, I'm really not getting use to this like a lil'. Weird. But then again, i'm having fun. Like today I was almost almost late for school. Having fun laughing etc with volleyball mates.

The School is selling low fat ice cream now, if I didn't get my facts wrong. Woah! Ben & jerry's still better. Hagen diaz too and yammi yoghurt. There is no night study program tomorrow after training! YES!! I need to pia EOM tomorrow.

4B's class bbq is cancelled. I hope nathan can confirm friday night plans with lene and ws. HAHA. Its a pity that we are not 18 yet =( And most probably saturday is sushi buffet with scrabble mates. I'm so not eating lunch after training on saturday. Yay for my dear shuqunites!

Paint me like I am. Paint me like I'll never go black and white. Paint me like an eagle, soaring above the skies. Paint me like I'll never ever shed some tears. Paint me like I was oh so long ago.

Labels. The truth and the rumours. Labels. The ugly and the beautiful. Labels. What's real and what's not. Labels. The tittles and words. Labels. The love and the hatred. Labels. The needs and the wants. oh my tian, I feel emotionless for a while.

no.206

2007-07-15T20:02:00.000+08:00

I have become too much of a bible reader.

Is this a good sign?

Am I really going to stop spurting out the Fs?!

Period.

Dailycare and songbooks. Why didn't I start earlier?

No one's to blame. No one's to blame. No one's to blame.

no.205

2007-07-15T15:10:00.000+08:00

Past Vs. Present. The past won~ I bet there are more seniors than those who came back yesterday. The sun was such a spoiler. We got to watch david and joash perform. But they didn't win anything. So that was arts day and college day. They just had to clash this two events, crazy school.

I have to stop procrastinating and start start start studying for promos. Even with less teevee, I'm not doing anything productive except maybe sleeping. Oh, kkb is the girl's captain! Yay! Finally we got our "exco", no need to worry who is who now =D

I am so not blaming anyone. Things just happens. Like how JT's song goes "what goes around, comes around". Well, it came around back to me again. No hard feelings whatsoever. And now I lost my bestfriend. Great*

My dad's in Nigeria. My mum thought my dad wanted to go on a year end holiday when he asked if I was free at the end of the year. But aiyah, he wants me to go to Chengmai.

no.204

2007-07-12T23:08:00.000+08:00

"Defining Faith"

The daily care sharings this few days has been very encouraging. Praise the Lord! And yes, Praise the Lord one more time because ANDREW GOT INTO IP PROGRAM IN NJC! Woots* No more SJI >.< NJ!!!

THERE IS P.T tomorrow. I'm starting to dread going for P.T even though there is running whihc is my favourite. But its oh-so-boring please. I hate the jumping thing at the ramp. Damn irritating. At least there was the mattress to jump on in sqs. Well... I get to have trainings with my lovely friends anyways. So yea, that keeps me going on now.

I'm fine people and getting along quite well =D No worries. Quite numb already (ok this is bad ahhahahah)

So if I'm not thinking means I'm a retard?! Wahahhahaha. So I'm a retard whenever I run!

Suei Chuan just contacted me. He's timing is like so perfect? Finally he said something about - - - - He has got to get better. He has to get better. He has to get better. There's the class bbq next friday! Sofia and I will not be "singled" out cause lene and nathan and etc are gonna be there too! Ahahahha.

Okay, No more ~~ivan~~. That's a good thing I ~~guess~~. No more regrets!!! But for my dear volleyball mates. Less one emo mate!!!

no.203

2007-07-08T22:42:00.000+08:00

i just wanna cuddle up in someone's arms and cry.
too emo i know.
I can't believe how vulnerable i have become.
and I have decided on getting two new ear piercings. Gonna get orange studs. I thought of tongue. But I remembered how ak had to struggle with her ABCs, no way am I getting my tongue pierced.

no.202

2007-07-08T18:50:00.001+08:00

"For where your heart is, there your heart will be also.

matthew 6:21"

oh god byebye cyber friendly world...

hello geek world...

The crybaby is so back.

Bestfriend(ym): I think I know why I'm like sad.I'm like so deprive of company of ivan's. Go bash him up he is ill-treating me again!(just kidding aye)

OH wells. Emo days are here cause da yi ma's here today and will not go until next week =(

I have thought it over.

This time I won't cut my hair short.

July's horrible enough already.

I'm losing weight again. Back to 44kg. I can fly on the track every friday during P.T with the boys now.

Candy can't make me happy. Maybe cookies. hahah.

no.200

2007-07-07T21:04:00.001+08:00

its definite.

i'm giving no shit to it anymore.

no.199

2007-07-07T18:27:00.000+08:00

Wear green Wear green Wear greeeeeen today!

I'm exhausted and I bet everyone else in volleyball are. Especially those who had to run their rounds during p.e and I didn't (only 2 for p.e). So, have a good rest =D While training and trying to make my whole body not turn so much and my hand...... I remembered Mr Ong!!! I wouldn't be running this much faster than before it if weren't for him. Who was determined to change the way my feet points to when I run. So now I run with my two feet pointing straight and not out. So random. Now I have to change the way I lept into the air and just not change where I face and position myself.

Results sucks. I can't be lazy anymore aye. I so better stop watching disney channel, bye bye kim possible. And dear mates, I doubt I'll be like joining you for loads of dinners on wednesdays or saturdays. Hello night study sessions in pjc. Oh man, I'm so gonna get home soooo late.

Ngee Ann's library is like so friggin big and cool, cold whatever. IT WAS VERY NICE TO SEE YOU ALL AGAIN!

So switch to a new target. Go for something new. Feel the agape love. Concentrate on just one thing at a time. Don't ever feel sorry. Compassion? Ay? Forget all about the insecurities, just happy-go-lucky. FTW. Just let love in. Open your mind. Let the hormones rage. Open your eyes wide. Forget everything you hated. Don't ever make the same mistakes again. Just let love in. Don't ever cry. Weakling. FTW. Don't ever feel sorry.. You were once able to be a bad bad girl. Gone were the days~ Choice.

Training sessions has been fairly interesting and amusing. Wednesday was shawn and sim. Friday was still sim and I don't know what else. Today was wai chong and vipul and maybe still shawn and sim. Can't wait for next wednesday!!!!

no.198

2007-07-02T21:38:00.000+08:00

YAY! I so can't can't wait for this thursday! I hope nothing dampens my mood until thursday.

I find myself saying something I used to say a year ago - - - "da qiu da qiu. You shi da qiu....." Period.

I GOT NEW VBALL SHOES. Disgusting design but hey, new shoes more friction =D But its heavier than my old one. Now I have shoes for outdoor and indoor trainings =D

no.197

2007-07-01T23:27:00.000+08:00

I did urshering at the grandstand yesterday at National Stadium =D Good view and stood beside that big and tall guy, James Wong. OMG! He's like so so huge. Dinner was HORRIBLE but they made it up with the quite good view and a cup of beer. lol. Crazy guy wearing the team singapore shirt who was supporting the Aussies and giving the two guys behind us beer. I think 6-8 cups or something like that.

Chia Lynn's back for a while =D Solomon didn't win anything from dragonboating competition. And I had a nice time with Ivan today. Worth the blisters and ~~fucking~~ complaints from myself. But aiyah, mishaps like this happens. So next time, put your er hem in my bag okay. This is a lil' deja vu. Cause ohmygod, best friend lost his er hem with me too. it never came back. I will not say hurtful or stupid stuff until you feel a lot more better. =D THANK YOU FOR TODAY!!! I will not post the video. I will not post the video. I will not post the video.

Its youthday tml! I can watch Kim possible in the morning and then go for a morning run and then maybe drop by ivan's to cheer him up(provided you're at home and I can find your address which I wrote it down on a piece of paper that I think I threw it away already. shit). I must rely on my fantastic memory now.

phhhooootos

no.196

2007-06-29T21:48:00.000+08:00

WE WATCH THE SNEAK PREVIEW OF DIE HARD 4.0 today!!! We=jian yun, denise and grace =D I give it 4 out of 5. 4 because we it ends up the same, same ol' same ol' ending.

July's gonna be bittersweet. Pms, pms, pms.

Wait for you by Elliot Yamin, is such a sweet emo song. I hate pms.

Ahahahha, I can't get the html code thing!! I totally forgot the codes and stuff for span etc. Past files of html now look like math to me. Horrible. And I think the tagboard looks really out of place. Must quickly get the html code right.

My chinese oral is like next wednesday! 4th of July. HAHAHAHA. Long weekend =D

no.195

2007-06-27T22:57:00.000+08:00

YAY!!! NO MORE PAPERS!!

But I'm not that happy. Because I'll have to get back my results and face the fact that I really didn't do well at all. I feel so low now. Haiyo.. WHEN'S THE NEXT TRAINING?!

Its sucks when your close friends aren't in the same school, you can't have fun with them during long weekend breaks. I miss you guys!!! and ivan too.

no.194

2007-06-25T23:47:00.000+08:00

OH gwad, chinese was okay. At least I know I will not get a subpass, unless I did badly for oral. And there's just one more paper left =D YAY for biology! I can't wait for the next training and this saturday. Okay I'm not gonna sell nike t-shirts cause it involves money. I got the ushering job instead, well that's when edwin replies me. HAHAHA.

I'm hungry.

There's gonna be a new season of kim possible and ron is kim's boyfriend. LIKE HUH?! Looking forward to it. I can't wait for transformers and Harry Potter!!

I hope there's like no training next friday. I wanna go np to study with sofia. Psst, I got something to study le. Woah, I can't wait for this wednesday. I get to relax after that = volleyball training!!! Okay, I doubt I'll be training. Bloody the hell, my arm still hurts. GWAD.

I saw kitty on sunday, basking under the moonlight outside ym's house. Wahahahah. What a way to welcome me back to that ever familiar place. Still the same old fat kitty. I'll show you all kitty when I upload her into my com. Oh there's bouncy too, a new cat who crashed westmere for I don't know what reason. Bloody ivan has to miss bouncy. Bouncy must have gone to find you after you fed her with milk. Ahahaha. I wanted to type breast feed. At least bf has got a heart of compassion, just read this touching story off an email jeromne? sent to us all, really really touching. IVAN IVAN IVAN =D

this is kitty!

no.193

2007-06-24T23:24:00.000+08:00

I'm Happy. That's what I think. Maybe a lil' bit happier, a lil' less angst. But not in time to concentrate for my chinese paper tomorrow. okay, panic now. its chinese.

no.192

2007-06-23T10:31:00.000+08:00

We spent Father's Day at The Oasis last Sunday.

I'm left with Chinese and Biology. Mid years so far was HORRIBLE. DANG! There goes training for me. Unless of course I manage to get my Ds and Es. Last year I was still talking about getting my As and Bs for O's. Now I'm talking about getting those kind of shitass results. I should have just paid attention in school and not think as if I can catch up during the June holidays. Alright, BIG lesson learnt.

I have been thinking a lot lately. A lot of questions and doubts. Aiyah, but life has to go on this way. Stupid cass think so much for what. No point being angry over such stupid crapass issue that (i have to face it sooner or later or i'll just be suffering alone with all the angst and sensitivity and insecurities) I shouldn't be bothering about. Because that's the reason why I am breaking down. breaking down. breaking down. Life was exciting. But then another side of me just want to give in and not face the issue at all. Loser. Total loser. I give myself until saturday. And if I don't, well, friends, give me hugs and I know you are always there. hahhaha.

I have yet to take my dumpling for ym. ym ym ym ym ym ym. Ahahaha, I miss doing that. Hmmm. Ym, How's Suei Chuan? ym ym ym ym ym ym ym.

I miss volleyball trainings. Ahahha. This will sound surprising to ym.considering the fact that i used to hate trainings in sqs. I don't feel healthy anymore, I feel fat(???) and I'm not getting my weekly dosage of laughter. Maybe that's why I don't feel me. But who's gonna be our coach. Big question.

life's a bitch. life's not fair. life's a bitch. life's not fair. Bloody ass game. life's a bitch. life's not fair. yes, I'm back to thinking of it as a game. life's a bitch. life's not fair. maybe i'm going back. life's a btich. life's not fair. life's a btich. life's not fair. How's life being single? life's a bitch. life's not fair.

no.191

2007-06-20T14:45:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIE JIE!!

There's math, bio and chinese to bang on now. Econs was horrible to me. I didn't complete it and I had not much crap to write. And and and Chinese A level Oral is only next friday. OH NO.

its tough. Ahhh... Hanging by the moment. ~~Must not be a meanie. Must not be a meanie.~~ Days of regrets are so over.

no.190

2007-06-18T21:48:00.000+08:00

Geepee was so-so. GWAK! There's chem, econs, math, chinese and bio. But I got to be thankful to God. Its not all cramp into a week, so there's time to revise.

Damn my Sinus. Damn the horrible ice choc at the lib. Damn stomache.

Alright, back to my beloved chem. EWWWW!

no.189

2007-06-16T22:16:00.000+08:00

RIPPED THIS OFF FROM AK!!!

no.188

2007-06-14T21:15:00.000+08:00

honesty. hmmm.

Big word.

Since when wasn't I?

Maybe sometimes, but I always was honest.

What about you? Ever wondered how I felt about being honest?
Ask yourself before asking me to be honest.

*ah choo* I'm allergic to bullshit.

no.187

2007-06-13T08:52:00.000+08:00

So reunion was a-okay. Saw all the familar faces and voices. I had fun camwhoring, especially on 98! Ak, Sofia, Azri and I fell down the table tennis table. HAHAHAHAHAHA. Like why did we sit on the table in the first place. Painful but fun. But I'm not thinking of trying it again. WHERE ARE THE PHOTOS?!

Anyway, I think we should meet up more often. Then all of us can be ourselves! The crazy whacky weird self. omg, I'm calling myself weird. Weird~ Then we'll be happy being ourselves for like a while. But then, its still better than nothing huh.

BIG THANKS TO JUSTIN,AK, AZRI,SOFIA,TERESA,XIN MIN, YU MIN and others.

I guess its time to wake up and stop playing already. weird~
I don't wanna do math =( It sucks.

You can do it cass!!! Its only someone. You always say what you wanna say. Bloody hell.

no.186

2007-06-11T00:07:00.000+08:00

I should have studied finish everything. Damn, the fun's only beginning.

Hello. So now what, we aren't best friends huh? Don't worry, I'll manage well. I'm strong remember. Eh, no. Actually I WAS! I'm not blaming you for anything. I just DO NOT WANT TO SCREW UP MY LIFE ANYMORE. Yea, I'm disappointed. oh wells.... oh yea. One more thing. SORRY FOR? We knew all along it will end this way. So why apologise. EVEN THAM SAYS SO. I'm so bloody glad you feel so much relieved now. At least I don't have a burden now too. So we should both be HAPPY! By now, you should know how I am feeling. So please, let me be happy and enjoy life. I want you to also be happy and just live life the way it is. Aren't you tired? I wish you all the best and I"LL STILL BE THERE FOR YOU even though YOU HAVE NO FAITH IN ME THAT I WILL. A movie does not count okay =p

Friday was well spent =D thank you trevor for teaching me math, that's if you ever read this. Thank you ivan for accompanying me =D THANK YOU SO SO MUCH AK, AZRI AND XIN MIN!!!! We finally had chocolate fondue together after craving/planning to have it since sec 3?! Maybe next time, I'll bring a scrabble set. Or should we wear our sqs uniforms and eat chocolate fondue again and play scrabble. HAHAHA. Crazy idea~ I'll be seeing all of you later! Can't wait! You guys are the only peeps that I can really really be myself, so that's a hell good thing. Thank you for the many? pictures we took and the good company. YOU ALL ROCK CAN! So i'm super happy, you made my holiday quite worthwhile. And Ivan, its not that you suck but aiyah, they rock can and you rock to can but then they are rockier. CRAP.

Yesterday(Sunday)- I AM FINALLY A YTSA GRADUATION. I shook hands with Ang Peng Siong. hahahah. Big deal~ But it is to me. So guests were namely APS and Remy Ong and some other woman whom I didn't catch her name. I got the tee and a jacket and some other misc stuff. There was sushi, some dishes, veg soup and barley for refreshments. Not bad luh~ But I still prefer the food during last year's 5th anniversary party. Then I "rushed" to tiong bahru to celebrate grandpa's birthday. He's old. 70 something years old. OLD!!!! And took pictures with family and cousins. Grandpa's happy so he can sleep well =D That makes me happy too. And then after that mama and I went to sgh to visit someone. Well, memories of grandmama days in the hospital. Geee~ I almost cried. It was so painful to see her suffer. So painful. heartbreaking. I miss popo...

Photos:

no.185

2007-06-07T09:19:00.000+08:00

you were happy. what happened?

you were strong. what happened?

New songs, new songs and more new songs to listen =D Yesterday was productive, managed to get some stuff into my brain. and I finally talked to trevor on the phone. I can now assure myself that my math will not get a U grade for mid years. I may actually pass the 2H2 & 2H1 criteria afterall. So Hot shorts reads people's blog. Ahahahha, A SHOUTOUT TO HOT SHORTS!!! Now you can stop talking about me and ivan kite flying.

Bring it all back, bring it all back.

Make me laugh will you?

no.184

2007-06-04T10:52:00.000+08:00

Think Happy. Act Happy.Be Happy.It ain't that difficult ay.

BULLSHIT.YOU ASS.

Piece of shit.

No worries. I'm fine =D

Maybe I should hibernate, go do some hard core mugging.

Maybe I should.....Then everything may change.

Maybe I should.....Then I wouldn't worry.

Maybe I should just shut up and

continue with my revision.

no.183

2007-06-03T20:39:00.000+08:00

Birthdays, birthdays and more birthdays.
Yea, I'm jealous of those getting older sooner. I'm sick of waiting to the end of the year. I'm always saying this every year. So its nothing new to old friends. hahaha.

Should I join the youth camp committee? Will they think I'll just back out? But I pretty interested... Okay, I better better go for youth camp this year and not back out one week before it.

no.182

2007-05-31T10:14:00.000+08:00

Maybe maybe. Consequences? Maybe maybe. A future? Maybe maybe. All smiles?

No more trainings after friday =(

A month till the next and maybe I can serve good balls.

Happy Vesak Day! I have no idea what people do today~

no.181

2007-05-30T10:07:00.000+08:00

May's bad, June's worst. Whatabout July or maybe even August? Not being far sighted at all. I thought monday was cool cause I was confident. Then came tuesday and now wednesday. Friday will come sooner than expected and then there's no more trainings. Just when I'm ditching the painkillers and anti-inflammatory cream. Two and a half weeks more till mid years and I'm still not doing anything much. Maybe tys mcq. Math is horrible, I can't even complete questions with notes as reference. ~~I need tuition.~~ Yes, may's always so bad, but June's always the worst and the bitchy one. I'm almost over May and just starting to welcome June.

I have gotten over everything. Have you? I have really move on. Have you? Insecurities. (again) No candy can make me happy now. I couldn't even finish a container of candy floss quick quick. That's how ~~bad~~. *chants* GO CASS GO! GO CASS GO! X infinte. God is always there for you =D

So May was bad and June's going to be the worst.

no.180

2007-05-27T18:16:00.000+08:00

I AM OFFICIALLY A YTSA GRADUATE!!! 10 JUNE 10 JUNE! I'm going to get that tee. I hope they have chocolate fondue again. I AM OFFICIALLY A YTSA GRADUATE!!! YES!!!!

Dad got lost in malaysia yesterday. Damn. that was 1 hour plus of shopping gone.

I got my havannians =D Thanks yu min.

Why, thank you. I learnt how to humble myself and to know how to feel. I became emo due to that too =/ I had never wanted to say "zero". But then I remembered the last time something like this happened, Sacrifice. Its unfair, both ways. I have hurt you, left you, hurt you and left you. I so don't want a third time. I have hurt you, left you, hurt you and left you. Damn true I am the stronger one. Used to alright. Now I just feign ignorance. Don't pity me. I chose to do so. I chose to ignore everything and then tell it all to someone I think I can trust. Don't worry about me. I can manage. Don't feel lonely. Because GOD made man to have relationships. I'll stand by you. I'll attend whatever function you want me to be at. I'll listen to whatever troubles you have. I'll go out with you if you need someone to just be there for you. I'll be there. Its only year 2007. 2011 ain't far away. Let it go. Put everything behind and look forward to something else better. Just move on, like what I have been trying to do. You let me slipped away just like that. So don't let something else slip away. 2011. A promise made. This time I won't back out.

no.179

2007-05-24T08:49:00.000+08:00

Oppsy!

Damn...Sorry Ivan. It ain't because I'm not having fun with you.
Go pioneerugby*

no.178

2007-05-22T17:30:00.000+08:00

Gee...Its a whole different fun that you can never share.

PJC won SRJC as expected during yesterday's match @ ccab. Ak came along with me(IT WAS NICE MEETING YOU!!) and we saw nice looking acjc ruggers. HAHAHHAH. And SAJC won ACJC. Stupid bias referee~ Brought ivan to the fireball at science centre. and ZOMG I'm so not going bring him there, ever. So now I'm really looking forward to doing crazy stuff with old buddies. HAHAHAHAHA. Not forgetting the laughing sessions and eating loads of food with azri. ZOMG! I MISS YOU ALL terribly. The only fun I have now is volleyball trainings.

I just remember that I'm going for the school's tioman trip =D OKay, so that's something I should look forward to when the term starts. I must get a new pair of havannians~

Ahhh, Shrek 3 and Pirates of the Carribean is showing soon!!! YAY YAY YAY!

crappy shit.

no.177

2007-05-20T17:42:00.000+08:00

I went kite flying on saturday =D And I lost interest after a short while. But its more like certain parts of the field was muddy and I was wearing slippers and and because the kite was torn. Nevermind... there was ivan running with the kite. hahahahhahaha. It was fun. like 8/10.

no.176

2007-05-16T03:55:00.000+08:00

DEAR LORD, PLEASE GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO CARRY ON.

Finally some regrets, but its all a lil' too late already. Its funny cause I never thought of life like this now. laughs*

Captain's ball and BBQ on June 1* Banapa's sexy seventeen 5th* 4 EH BEE CEE June 11* Shitty. Now I can't buy Banapa's present on the first with supposedly-bestfriend.

Dad bought N95 already. Maybe that's why I haven been seeing him around the living room lately. He must be busy fiddling with his new phone. And even at this hour in the morning. Geez.

and and and 3 MORE LOOOONNNGG DAYS TO HOLS =D Yes yes yes!

Rugby match, PJC Vs JJC tomorrow @ ccab. Okay, I hope JJC wins and ivan to be intact on thursday still.

Laughs* A mentality of a young teenager. You turn my life around and you picked me up when I was down. I am not emo-ing.

no.175

2007-05-09T02:49:00.000+08:00

Its getting better.
At least for now.

I finally finally pass something. GP!

Volleyballers and I were at yin lin's house baking cookies and brownies for seniors (farewell). Ahhahahah. It was so so so FUN! Even though it was tiring
, we manage to get a nice batch of cookies from the one I baked for ivan =D I hope my hard work pays of and the cookies still stay crunchy later. Its a two month thingy. Wel... I have achieved the two month thingy so I suppose I'll carry on. It ain't that horrible.

We lost to NYJC and SAJC and we are going to lose to AJC later. Experience luh. Anyways, we are in Top 8 already. That's good enough for me. Top 8 grouping ain't that good.

I listened during chem lecture yesterday and chem tutorials and econs tutorial and gp tutorial. Not bad... At least I did not sleep during math lecture~ So random. I'm going to sleep during everything later including dinner. Buai Tahan... I have nto done bio tutorials yet leh. DIENESS!

no.174

2007-05-03T22:21:00.000+08:00

To carry on...

Stupid Stupid Stupid Cass. Needs LAUGHTER. LOADS OF LAUGHTER. Needs to play some SCRABBLE. Maybe knowing too much and saying too much is BAD BAD BAD. I shall stop k-poing and gossiping too much and maybe concentrate on other shit. I shall stop opening my mouth to wide and at least feel less depressive after telling stuff, especially to ivan. Since there is always this queer silence after I say too much that I shouldn't have said in the first place. And I don't care if you, ivan er read this. Its not that I'm AWFULLY DEPRESSED because of this. IF there was ak, sofia or saman, I think I will be running to you all and crying my eyes out because I have no idea what is making me oh so awfully DEPRESSED. At least they will be there. Its worst now when I can't bloody RUN properly without feeling any pain or having a few hours off such crappy emotions during volleyball trainings. Now I feel like SHIT. I bet you feel like shit and come on, stop thinking too much. Its not as if I'll cheat. I only cheat during tests when I really really need to. That's like desperate case already. Not typing anymore, in case ivan gets ~~sensitive~~. Maybe not AWFULLY DEPRESSED.

Self denial? Probably. I think I'm going to run around and laugh crazily with ak. Tml? Hope you read this! I wouldn't mind a tub of Ben & Jerry's too.

Back to biology revision.

Maybe I messed up somewhere.

no.173

2007-05-01T23:08:00.000+08:00

oh man... I sure hate this.
And I sure hate this feeling.
So much for being happy.
The doctor says no arm activities, no touching of balls for 2 weeks. Well, its 6 weeks for a full recovery. I tore my muscles. I ~~cried~~ when he did crappy movements to my arms. AND I DO NOT HAVE A CAST! and I am not that ~~clumsy~~.

~~Reminders of how life was and how great friends were.~~ Hmmmm. School's horrible because of PW and GP. Shitty Shitty. I wish everyday is a Saturday - Volleyball, long lunches and slack evenings.

Movies to catch: Spidey 3 / Harry Potter
Books to read: Plenty

Thank GOD for all of them.
i'm blogging like this again....

no.172

2007-04-26T21:59:00.000+08:00

NATIONALS'

TOP 8

PEOPLE!

And I gotta admit I played horribly today. Damnnnie... I will not do that ever again. It felt so shitty.

Crappy things aside, I'm happy =D

no.171

2007-04-24T03:37:00.000+08:00

I miss miss miss miss hanging out at 287d. I miss miss miss block catching. I miss miss miss miss miss -------. I miss miss miss miss ym's bed. I miss miss miss eating ym's noodles when he's sick. I miss miss miss miss running about. Rachel was talking about parties and stuff like that in school yesterday(23 april). She made me realised how fun my life was. Note the 'was'. And thank you AK. I think its getting better although it still feels shitty, but i'm sure it will be resolved soon. So yea...AK,SAM,SOFIA,YU MIN! If you're reading this, let's go play play! hahahhahaha. I'll make my saturday afternoons free* I will not leave halfway* I know lectures are boring, but poly life can't be boring. I thought it was suppose to be exciting in a way...

School was fun today, even though it was tutorial day. GP WAS SUPER UNPRODUCTIVE! I am a million times happier cause I need not attend gp later. Thank you volleyball! ahahhahahah. Anyways, the guys won tpjc =D

cousins.

no.169

2007-04-19T23:06:00.000+08:00

WOAH!

I am indeed speechless.
Total blindness!
I'm a EMO BOOBIM!

Stick to the status quo